As I tweeted- I have a plan- the questions are: will I go through with it? Will I be brave enough to share on the internet?
The plan is to finally lose the weight and get into shape. The problem has been that, over the years, I have had what equates to anti-support. Friends have done and said things that ultimately sabotage even the notion of doing this.
Women / girls have said things like:
“Oh, you’re not fat.”
“You’re not the one who’s fat, I’M the one who’s fat!” ( this from the girl who weighed no more than 110 / 120 pounds. )
And from the guys:
“200 pounds isn’t so bad.”
“As long as you don’t lose the tatas.”
When showing a friend the stationary bike I’m saving up for- he commented “It’s pointless to exercise just one part of your body.”
I have decided that today I am taking back the power. I’ve banged my head on the proverbial wall for the last time. These people are no longer either a part of my life or an influence. Today I am taking this back and making it mine.
Today is my regular check up with my doctor regarding the PCOS. I’m going to ask the nurse to take 2 pictures with my disposable camera. 1 of the scale- ( because there are those who refuse to believe my claim of weight. ) and one of me because people on a weight loss kick usually start with the “before picture.”
Wish me luck.