The Writer’s Personality Traits

Today I read a blog post by Kristi Holl, one of the writers I follow. She re-shared this post that she made from 6 years ago:  When Your Writer’s Personality is Rejected

I was unable to post a comment so I opted to share my word in a blog post. Please read Kristi’s post to see what inspired my response.

Some of the signs of a writer’s personality

~ you’re sensitive to emotions, yours and others

~ you notice things that tend to gets passed others

~ solitude is your friend

~ you like to think and think deep

~ you tend to be introverted, the observer at parties, not center stage.

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Thank you Kristi. I grew up feeling like everybody hated me. As a child, I wasn’t invited to many parties and was always the last one picked for a team. In my teens, I fell into a debilitating depression. Writing was my one solace. It’s what got me through the loss of my adopted Dad when I was 12.

I was thrilled when two of my teachers said I had talent and should focus on it. One suggested I consider becoming a writer. Unfortunately, it was the one thing my family did not want me doing. They were not supportive and sabotaged my efforts emotionally with negative comments. And yet, while they each had a love of reading, they had not read anything of mine. They didn’t even want me going to college. One relative actually said “You need to give up your dream and go to work for McDonald’s.”

I pulled away from them, drew more towards my writing. It’s what got me through the chaos. Believing that something was wrong with me, I leaned on my writing for the sake of my sanity. I had no idea that I was some kind of normal. I didn’t know that these traits of mine were geared towards a specific personality. Now I know thanks to you.

It’s a relief to know that there is nothing wrong with our personalities. As the phrasing goes, people are geared for different things. Some people are geared for center stage. Some are geared to write about those in center stage. It is such a wonder to see how many different personality sets there are. It would be a dull and boring world if we  were all geared the same way.

I’m still looking for my writing companions. I’ve found many other writers. Some have stuck with me. Some are like fleeting moments. This can be a good thing by choosing the positives of the moment. Others though, treat writing as a competition. This is not a good thing when a writer is looking for connections, companions, community, and shared support.

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Disillusioned and Need Help

I’ve griped about it already but now, I’ve had it. I’m disgusted. When I was in Iowa I did a search for rent in Florida. It was extensive, we’re talking weeks worth of searching. I was finding places renting one bedrooms for $ 400 to 450. Many of them allowed one, up to two cats. I felt hopeful that I could find a place. I even saw ads for one of my old, and favorite apartments renting for $300. If I had known that this was a lie, I would have stayed where I was. At least I knew the truth there.

After I moved down, I checked those places again. The apartments I was interested in. The prices had gone up in a matter of months. Those $ 400-450 units are now $ 500 to 600. That favorite apartment is now $ 800. And cats? It’s now ‘no pets allowed’.

I feel like I’ve been duped, lied to, deceived. There’s even one place that advertises $ 399 a month on the newspaper site. When I found the complex on apartments.com it was different. The rent listed was $ 550. I saw the reviews and most complained that it was $ 399 for the first 2 months then the landlord jacks the price to $ 550. RED FLAG!

I’ve looked at pictures to some of these places. We’re not talking about fancy, 5 star complexes with crystal clear, heated pools, in unit laundry / connections. We’re talking about base line apartment. Places that don’t even offer dishwashers or central heat and air. Places that are under 500 square feet.

To me, this is greed plain and simple. If these were hotels, we’re talking 2, maybe 3 stars worth. There is no reason why these little places should be renting for so high other than pure greed.

I’ve said it before. I am powerless, average Jane citizen. The ones who do have the power do nothing except let it happen. Most people just shrug or say ‘it is what it is.’ Meanwhile, the rent keeps going higher. People get priced out of a place to live because their income isn’t 3 times the rent.

Sure, there’s housing programs like Section 8. The problem is that these only work when they’re OPEN. From what I’ve been seeing, the sites for these programs are saying the lists are CLOSED.

I’ve seen a few places that advertise low income housing. The problems here are that they don’t answer their phones and they don’t return calls.

What else I know for certain is that I can’t stay where I’m at. There’s no access to public transit. I can’t afford to go back to Iowa. The money isn’t there. So, I’m stuck in a place I can’t stay. I am out of ideas. So, I am asking for help.

Please do not suggest that I give up my cat. I’ve had her for over 10 years. In 2017, I lost two cats one month apart. Then, I had to give up the 3rd one. Athena helped me through these losses. The thought of losing her makes me ill. I can’t lose her too.

The Next Chapter

Today I am 10 days away from the next chapter or book of my life. As I write this I think about several things; asking myself important questions about this current chapter or book of the last 19 years. Things like: Is everything done? What’s left to do? Have I missed anything?

Change isn’t easy but it is inevitable. I believe that if you’re feeling stuck or trapped in your situation, when an opportunity comes up for change we need to pounce like playful kittens. This has finally happened for me and I’m pouncing.

I left Tampa Florida in June of 2001. I suppose that it’s fitting that my return to Florida is also in June. It’s almost hard to believe that it’s been 19 years. I don’t feel it. I don’t look 47. To be honest, I don’t feel like I’ve aged, physically. Mentally is another story.

In reflecting on this time, I had some growth both spiritually and academically. I’m not where I’d like to be with either one but I am better than I was when I left home. With my writing, I have more projects than before. Sadly only the academic papers and one non-RPG story are finished.

For a time it seemed like I was making progress, that my life was finally moving forward then in 2005 my life came to a halt. I decided to take time off college to pay off some debts. This took longer than I anticipated and since this, I’ve felt like my life has stalled.

Yes, I got a lot of debt paid off but, honestly, its debt I wouldn’t have had had I been smarter with my finances and not smoked. It’s mind-blowing when you quit – you realize just how much of your money goes towards that habit. It’s a lesson learned. There are many reasons why I’m glad I gave up this habit.

When I look back on the time since there’s been little to no progress. At least not by society’s standards. To make a list of what I have accomplished, it’s not as long as I had hoped or wanted.

My Top 5 Major Accomplishments:

  1. Earned 21 transferable college credits.
  2. Paid off roughly $ 20,000 in debts.
  3. Quit smoking
  4. Eliminated the clones / copies of files among my writings.
  5. Made my first A in a math class that I can remember ever making.

When I look at my writing. I know 2 things for certain: 1, I should have finished with the IFW course over 15 years ago. 2. I should have finished a number of projects long ago. Publication is a separate issue. Sadly, I don’t. What I do have or rather did accomplish was the elimination of the clones, multitude of copies of my manuscripts.

With this, I think about the people who told me things like “don’t do it.”, “Scrap them and start fresh.” Etc… So many said so many things that told me to simply give up on my manuscripts.  I was determined though. A friend and I spoke about something completely unrelated. She told me about her problems with duplicate files and how they were a pain. I mentioned that I had the same problem with my novels. She told me about duplicate file finder programs. Problem solved. These programs knocked out the clones within months. They saved me uncountable years worth of aggravation from manual comparison.

I have tried to get back to writing; it hasn’t been easy. There’s problems around me that are beyond my control. I’m not physically comfortable- I need a new office chair but can’t afford one. To some, this sounds like an excuse. Others, however, understand the importance of being comfortable when writing. The right chair, the right sounds, the right environment are all important aspects to have before writing.

While my apartment has been good for a lot of things, writing has not been one of them. Anyone how has or does live in an apartment complex, especially an old one, knows what I mean. The walls may nor be thin but the loud and hard noises get through. Music is the worst, arguments come second. If someone lives above you- there’s every footfall, every item dropped. If there’s a dog or a baby, forget peace and quiet.

With this new chapter / book I’m hopefully. I’ll be living with my Mom and Step-Dad. They have a home on roughly 3 acres in country like area. My hope is that this will mean quieter days. Yes, they have a number of animals: cats, chickens, and dogs. What they don’t have is neighbors upstairs, on the other side of the wall, or children playing in the stairwell outside the front door. Not to mention screaming children outside the window. So, I am hopeful.

Here’s to the next chapter… the next book, on my life.

Cheers!

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Moving Along

A number of my friends are already aware of this. My followers might not be.

A lot of things are on hold right now, especially the writing because on June 4th I begin a new chapter in my life. I’m leaving Sioux City, Iowa. I will be moving to Florida with my Mom. After the move, I’m hoping to be able to move forward with my writing at full steam. This includes the course with Institute for Writers. I am on assignment 9 out of 12, to go. Yes, it’s the same one I’ve been on for 3 years. I’ve decided to take a different approach to the story. I’m excited.

In the mean time- people can join me at The Café on my site. This is a new forum community not just about my work but about people connecting.

The Café

3 Years…. Holy Hanna!!!

I’m certain that there are many writers who know this one.

Today I realized that I’ve been contending with a specific story, off and on, for three years this month. This is far too long to be stymied over a story that maxes out at 3,000 words.

Why is it limited to 3,000 words? This story was and still is slated for Assignment # 9 of a correspondence course. Breaking into Print from Institute for Writers is a challenging and rewarding program. I’ve accepted this challenge and I’m determined to complete it.

Why has it taken so long? There has been a lot of comments, critiques, and reviews of this piece.  A lot of people said things that, while I”m thankful for the responses, they added to the strife. So, I kept doing the one thing certain people kept telling me to do. Take a break, step away from the story and focus on something else.

Well, time passes when you keep setting the story aside.

The story is not much better off than it was last year, or the year before.

I have decided to revise the story, switch the focus of the POV character from talking about her friend’s situation. She’s now going to focus on herself. I’m also switching to 3rd person. Tried as I might, I’m just not comfortable with 1st person. To me it feels like it’s too easy to violate the show don’t tell rule. And as far as I know, this is one of the golden rules in writing.

So, in the coming weeks, I’ll be focused on ‘Schooled’. Yes, it finally has a title, so that’s some progress. I am hopeful that the revisions coming to mind, ( thanks Muse) will cure the stymie and get my writing flowing again.

From this lesson, I can share my sense of learning. If you feel stymied by a story that just doesn’t seem to be going right or ‘behaving’ as some like to say. Considering revising it,  try switching the POV character’s focus, switch the 1st / 3rd person ( try the one you’re not using).

In my contemplation of ‘Schooled’ over the last few days, I came to realize that the character that’s been the focus is in a prime mental state to be the antagonist.

I can work with this.

Now, can I get this revision done before my move? June 3rd is less than 5 months away.

Here’s a link to my portfolio on writing.com and the story as it is now.

Writing.com: MzSnowleopard “Schooled”

The title is tentative (working title), it may change. This has happened for me while working on stories. I start with one title and during the process a new, sometimes better one comes along.

Selling My Grandfather Clock

I am moving and cannot take this with me.

This clock is ideal for someone who wants the look of a Grandfather clock without the adjustments. All 3 functions are battery powered. See the image included that shows the battery placements. The clock itself takes one AA ( 1 ), the chimes take two AA batteries ( 2 ), and the pendulum takes two C batteries ( 3 ). On average, the right batteries will last up to 6 months ( like Duracell).

This clock is made of cherry wood with glass insets and 4 small shelves inside.

The pendulum and other decor are made of brass.

The best feature is that the chimes can be turned off!

 

notes on the battery compartment-

1- 1 AA battery for the clock face

2- 2 AA batteries for the chimes-there is a switch that controls the chimes on / off

3- 3 C batteries for the pendulum

I am asking $250, the value and price I paid.

Please contact me through Facebook @ https://www.facebook.com/mzsnowleopard